Today we’d like to introduce you to Aaron Miller
Aaron, we appreciate you taking the time to share your story with us today. Where does your story begin?
Not your typical story you expected to read but started from nothing to self discovery and building my future.
I am originally from California, when people think of California they think of big city’s, the beach etc..but I grew up in a small town. I was brought up in a household that was..well let’s say “dysfunctional”. Wasn’t the greatest but at the same time looking back there would be things I definitely would change but as well as things I wouldn’t because I wouldn’t be who I am today if it wasn’t for it. Growing up in a small town in California I always felt different from most people there. I didn’t have the best upbringing and the area wasn’t the best either. I always had a hard time fitting in, I was always into metal and horror films, in always had an interest in weird, oddity, dark aesthetics.
Being a typical rebellious teen in high school, I didn’t want to be in school I just wanted to have fun, joining bands, doing some partying, and more. Eventually this cought up to me and I ended up being a father at 18 with my high school sweetheart. Not having a father growing up and just being a kid still I had to grow up fast, so I did. I tried to change a few things in my life, after a year or so later in 2006 life turned upside down for me. On a road trip with my wife at the time and this time two of my kids we unfortunately got into a very traumatic car accident. I was hospitalized, my first born at 23months old past away and the other Motorist passed as well.
Being in my early 20s planning a funeral for my 23 month old son was not part of anything I would have expected. That lead me down to eventually we joining a church we were invited to. Going through the upbringing i had, the only person on my family was religious was my late grandmother, she was LDS, I did go to it a few times as a kids. This was not LDS but a Christian church, we felt a short of comfort in the church and I felt at the time, purpose.
Fast forward some years and I eventually went to bible collage and we had two more kids going to church and trying to be “normal “ and move on from the passed. We eventually moved to Alaska from California to where I hit another rock bottom.. see to me, I thought I was happy, I had a family, wife, kids, job, apartment, a dog etc.. but once again life took another road..my wife left me for another person and took the kids from me, my life was shattered again, moving back to California, living on couches and trying to get back in my feet. The church was there but with out getting into details I caught top leaders in the church red handed talking about me. I left. Here I am, mid to late 20s, lost a child, wife left, can’t see my family, never fit in, getting rejected everywhere I turn I eventually found another place, a church full of misfits like me, I eventually became part of the ministry there, head of a ministry and outreach team, that I finally felt loved and accepted. Moved from California to Nevada with the intention to help our church start a second church, after being in Nevada for some time helping the church grow, one day, some things happened where I felt like the direction I was given by a head pastor to do with a part in my life I felt “lead” not to follow that decision and go another route, well that lead me being treated wrongfully and I decided to stop going to that church, but that lead them to kick me out of the house I was sharing with other members, and everyone turning their backs on me and I had zero help, I ended up living in my car for a bit and it took time, but with my own doing I got a place to live, and started in this self journey of self discovery. Who am I? What do I believe? Where do I want to be? I never felt wanted to welcomed truly with anyone in my life, and when I thought I did, I got stabbed in the back many times and went though tragedies.
Well that lead me to move once again to Utah! Not knowing a single person, no family, friends, etc..I moved here for work. Continuing to figure out who I was and what I am, who I want to be, and reading countless books from both right and left handed paths. I remember picking up a copy of a book called The Satanic Bible by Anton Szandor LaVey, I remember reading this before in high school but I was just a rebellious teen, I was just being different I didn’t understand it that well then, but now when reading it I felt like I was reading a book that someone wrote down my thoughts and inserted them into the pages. I saw myself within the pages, knowing that all along this is who I was but I didn’t know..a Satanist. See all my life I spent so much time, energy, into “fitting in” finding groups of people to feel better and welcomed and supported but I wasn’t doing anything for myself, who I am. I realizing how by putting myself first, putting my desires, my dreams, my own hard work, being ok with the desires I have, being proud of my self and my accomplishments and also taking responsibility for my mistakes. instead of every time I put my life in someone hands I get hurt and gaslighted. After much studying I did with other books by Anton LaVey and by applying the principles and philosophy into my life I found myself, realizing who I am, I have discovered my sexuality, my identity, putting myself into therapy helping with traumas, also now I have a career as of right now with an amazing company living on my own, taking trips to different places for work. I am currently in the beginning process of trying to get my own business started here in Utah. As hobbies I enjoy going to coffee shops, reading, going to concerts, traveling, collecting oddities, tattoos..etc. reading a story how someone who moved to Utah discovered themselves to be a Satanist and living Their best life is something you didn’t expect to read but honestly it my story and my journey isn’t over, I am 38 and right now I still am on a journey and I am enjoying the ride, the lows and the highs. All because of my own hard work and determination, with the help of the Philosophy I found in satanism with the church of Satan, also want to make note, this is my own journey, I am not a spokesman or representative for them, we’re individualistic, my journey and what it means to me will be different to another person in this religion. I am just me. With all the things I’ve been through in my lifetime, I didn’t even share all of them, I had a choice to either take a highroad or take a rock-bottom road, And even through all these difficult decisions and difficult things I went through I am glad that I am here now.
I also would never thought in my whole life. I would call Utah my home, but honestly, I am absolutely loving it here. The counter culture is amazing, there is a huge LGBTQ+ Community here, Lots of great places to see concerts from local bands to big headliners. I am a hockey fan as well and knowing that we have a hockey team now here makes me super excited. Thank you for reading my story of my life, This world is full of so many different people of all different walks of life and different cultures and different backgrounds, And I’m excited to get the opportunity to share mine.
Can you talk to us a bit about the challenges and lessons you’ve learned along the way. Looking back would you say it’s been easy or smooth in retrospect?
Has not been a smooth road, I had to deal with financial difficulties, lost of loved ones and family. I deal with mental health things and I just always kept going without the tools to help me understand my thoughts and emotions until I started going to therapy. My therapist has helped me understand and help work though the tough times.
Thanks – so what else should our readers know about your work and what you’re currently focused on?
I am currently a Sales Representative for a beverage company. I get to build amazing relationships with different clients in the Salt Lake area and have fun while doing it, I have a small hobby doing photography as well, but what my dream is and I am in the very beginning stages of it is to start my own coffee business in this area. It won’t be just another coffee shop but will be a place where the oddballs could go, it is going to have a different atmosphere and theme from the rest of the coffee shops in the area and there will be more then just coffee.
What sets me apart, I can’t speak for everyone else since I don’t know everyone’s story but for my own story and having to go though so much in my life I have that proud determination seeing where I came from, what I been though and able to still follow my dreams.
What makes you happy?
First and foremost my children. When I get to talk with them, just puts a giant smile on my face. I love them so much.
Secondly, concerts! Concerts are my happy place, I could be having the worst day and when I go to a show I am home, the music is therapy to me, being around many people who share the same passion for music as me, seeing your favorite artist or band it’s just memories in the making.
Contact Info:
- Website: https://www.instagram.com/millersphoto?igsh=MWFhajRrOGhpNG5mcg%3D%3D&utm_source=qr
- Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/spookyrites?igsh=MXFqdWlsN3lzbmc0MA%3D%3D&utm_source=qr
- Other: https://www.tiktok.com/@spookyrites?_t=8nQMsZJR9tn&_r=1
